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Astro Tarot – February, 2016

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Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
 Author: The Bible: 1 Corinthians 13:4

General – For All Signs

Gain a foothold in February as your financial plans gain some steam and are highly favored at this time. Always be wary of Saturn spinning in the background; currently, it is a good idea to squirrel away as much money as possible. The why hasn’t presented itself yet. Spend this month having conversations with professionals to help you get the job done. Some of you may actually be finally able to sign on the dotted line.  If so, this is a huge success for you. The emphasis this month, of course, is on love, but on a broader scale. Love of family, career and self will take center stage. There is certainly nothing wrong with that. Remember, to view the cup as half full and to be honest with yourself about what works for you.

This month you may hear news on that haunting issue which tends to keep you up at night. While there is some form of loss incurred here, this is a great gift of divine timing from the Universe.  Celebrate your great news and turn your back on your fears that you carried throughout 2015.  Picture sadness in one hand, joy in the other; weigh it carefully. Now, which do you prefer to be? Go out and tell everyone you know what you have achieved.

Do not dwell on those things which you have lost; new beginnings await you. Balance your emotions, dry your tears, and get ready to light the fire for incredible change. Keep going over that budget.  One of this year’s challenges is to learn how to live differently; for some that means being more frugal.

Your future will be arriving shortly, but are you ready?  Consider all your options carefully, for you can only go forward. Longing for the past will take you nowhere. Others may not understand your every move, but you do not need to defend your judgment. Act in accordance with what works for you. Do not doubt yourself and hold yourself back and do not let your past stand in your way.

♈️ Aries – March 21 through April 19

You need to be realistic about your relationship choices this month, Aries.  It is definitely time to make some, or you could be in for some unpleasant surprises.You have connections to many people which need to be considered.  The blame for any predicaments you encounter can not be cast toward anyone other than yourself.  Strive for balance and fairness in all relationships.

♉️ Taurus – April 20 through May 20

Looks like this month will be all about balance for you, Taurus. The balance you are creating is leading you to a new beginning and a more comfortable and carefree feeling in life. Do not sacrifice yourself for the greater good or let things eat away at you. What was stressing you out is being replaced with a greater sense of self-reliance. You are in a transitional phase at the moment and you need to keep sending out to the Universe what it is you want. You really must stop looking at what didn’t make it this far with you. It was not meant to be. Maintain clarity and be totally honest with yourself. Pay special attention to your health with healthy choices in diet and exercise.

♊️ Gemini – May 21 through June 20

Keep calm, Gemini. You are looking almost giddy this month. It appears your plans can finally move forward; what is it you are creating? This is out of the norm for you and will give you a much-needed, fresh start. As you approach the Full Moon on the 22nd, you are feeling a little more grounded. You are lighting a fire for change which will help you regain the control you need in your life. Stick with black and white; there are no gray areas here. And say a prayer that it all works out.

♋️ Cancer – June 21 through July 22

Your children/siblings are your main area of focus this month, Cancer. While this is always an area of concern for you, it is moreso in
February. You seem concerned
with what they think and that what you are trying to do goes against your moral upbringing. The decisions you make need to be for you, not them. Do not be going back and forth and weighing it out or having a fear of rocking the boat. It is your life at stake here. You need for the magic to return to your life. Stoke that fire for change. Do not let your beliefs get in your way; some will say that by pulling this off, it is nothing short of a miracle. You had the ability all along. You just needed to be ready.

♌️ Leo – July 23 through August 22

Whoa, Leo! This needs to stop. First, you must sleep, it is of the utmost importance. This struggle you are having is not with anyone else; it is internal.  It appears you need help to alleviate the stress which has become too much; for some this feels to be more mental struggles. What is going on here needs to be resolved within, not blaming others for the things which do not work. Grandiose behavior serves no purpose here. Change happens. Take time out to stop and smell the roses; perhaps reminisce for a bit. Until you can change your reality and your perception, not much else will change.

♍️ Virgo – August 23 through September 22

The time has truly come to sever what does not work, Virgo. Cut your losses and prepare to move forward with what is left. Make certain that all communication is done in an honest and forthright manner. It appears there was a big lesson in the midst of this big change; hopefully you have learned from it. If a marriage or important relationship has ended, there is such a mixed bag of feelings here. It paves the way for new love and relationships to follow, so, while there may be jubilance and celebration, there is also a mourning of the real ending. Face it, it was over long ago; you simply refused to let it die. Close the door firmly and prepare to embark on the rest of your life.

♎️ Libra – September 23 through October 22

Libra, you do not appear to be sleeping well this month. So many thoughts keep swirling around in your head at night, especially with the primary commitment in your life. Part of you feels as though you were shut out; you continue to juggle life and its social commitments and celebrations, but the realities of what is really happening are a little muddled. A rebirth is coming and you need to break through to the other side with your significant other, boss, etc. It is time to make sure all affairs are in order. Many of you seem to be anticipating the arrival of a new family member. You are totally in awe of the circle of life; at the same time you are somewhat scared.

♏️ Scorpio – October 23 through November 21

Love and romance would like to find you in February, Scorpio. However, now is not the time to rush into anything. Do not deceive yourself, for the picture of what you think may be looks quite cozy; however, the timing feels a little off. You are still awaiting that important piece of news. For some, it may actually arrive at month’s end. You are at a crossroads with a particular long-term bond. And here is your wish; you KNOW things will be changing in March and you will finally be able to step forward to your future. By April, you will be recovering nicely.

♐️ Sagittarius – November 22 through December 21

You may feel as if the rug is pulled out from under you during the month of February, Sagittarius. Don’t be surprised; you created this by not paying enough attention to all the warning signs. It is likely that the Full Solar Eclipse of March 8, and the Partial Lunar Eclipse of March 23 may be delivering their messages to you this month, loud and strong. It is too late to be asking for help with this precarious position in which you find yourself. Your goals will be accomplished through your own hard work, no one else’s, and you will need to handle this alone. Do not turn a blind eye to open doors you should be investigating.

♑️ Capricorn – December 22 through January 19

Capricorn, the Universe may very well hand you a much-needed gift this month, but you must use great restraint. Is that possible?
When it comes to relationships and choices, it is a little late for regrets; if you only knew then what you knew now. Sometimes, tracing your path and how you wound up here, can be linked to a single choice along the way. Perhaps it is time to choose more wisely. The dificult times and sacrifice you have created for yourself is surely wearing you down. You need to change your perspective in relation to both health and finances. You can survive this and get your mojo back around July.

♒️ Aquarius – January 20 through February 18

February seems to find you concerned over the well being of a loved one, Aquarius. Remember the wisdom which has been passed down to you and use it wisely. You can not feel guilty over having a life; do not prevent yourself from moving forward or feeling that you do not have all the necessary control due to this situation. You are watching something major unfold with great success; is it for you? Or is it simply a pipe dream. It may be time to put your priorities in order. You appear to be assessing your commitments; some require sacrifice where it is your duty. Others may require a realistic assessment on your part.

♓️ Pisces – February 19 through March 20

Patience is the order of the month, Pisces. You must learn moderation in many areas of your life. Your long-term security is at stake; you can not handle responsibilites as you did in the past. Jumping forward in haste is not the way to go. Your life is about to change forever; think of a tidal wave coming in and wiping everything out in an instant. The Universe wants you to be happy, but it is going to totally rearrange your life to show you the error of your ways. You will be feeling quite positive about things around the solstice in June. July offers a fresh start and by October you are peachy keen.

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February Love and Finance Tarot Guidance:

Also see:

The Path You’ve Chosen

Sun in Aquarius

Full Moon in Leo

New Moon in Aquarius

Winter/Summer Season

Mars in Scorpio

Venus in Capricorn

Mercury Retrograde

Pluto Direct

Jupiter in Virgo

Saturn in Sagittarius

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Walking Away for Good or “How to Make that Pesky Ex Leave You Alone, Once and for All”

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I do not think any of us is exempt from knowing at least one person in our romantic life who just keeps turning up like a bad penny. That pesky ex who refuses to let it die. You tell yourself over and over it does not matter, he or she does not matter. When contacted, you repeatedly tell him/her, often using every expletive known to mankind, that you do not care, nor do you want to be bothered. Then, Mercury or Venus go retrograde, and there they are…again. What do you do?

The advice is so simple, and yet 99% of you will likely not heed it…DO NOT ENGAGE! There is a reason this person keeps returning. Perhaps he/she broke your heart in the past, and you keep thinking, well maybe this time it will work.  Likely not the case and you may even realize it, but are too weak to make it all end and go away. Some of you feel if you express all of your contempt and anger that this will do the trick, and yet they return.

In this day and age, we are all totally connected, so to rid yourself of someone and walk away, you need to be prepared to disconnect.  Sometimes, the extreme action of blocking people which is available to us these days can be counterproductive.  Merely unfriend this person.  Do not open Facebook messages, text messages and emails from him/her. Nothing says “I don’t care” more than saying and doing nothing. Period. End of story. DO NOT ENGAGE! Seriously, try it sometime. Your prolific use of the word f_ck will only serve to encourage most people.  If you totally ignore them, then they will have no choice but to go off and find someone else to make miserable.

I realize not all of you are in a position  to do this completely, as there may be children involved. But, you can still go lead your life without engaging in the nonsense and only participating in the conversation when it is to the benefit of your children.

As many of you know I have been reading Tarot cards for a very long time. I was prompted to write about this, as I hear so many versions of this far too often. The image above is of the 8 of Cups Tarot card. It is all about moving on and sometimes the only way to do this is to completely turn your back on something, no matter how good, or how bad it may seem.

I wish all of you luck if you encounter this situation in your life.  Remember, to walk away, what do you do? DO NOT ENGAGE!

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Through the Eyes of Tarot – Mars in Scorpio – January 3 through March 6, 2016

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You have been patient long enough and it has certainly taken a considerable amount of strength to make it this far. It is time to take action and Mars is finally feeling at home. Even though Mercury will be retrograde for 3-1/2 weeks this month, there is still much you can be doing.  It is time to rein in your finances and begin to save for a rainy day. While Mars is in Scorpio, you will be able to commit to a plan which allows you to regain the control in your life which you desire.  Try not to be at cross-purposes with others, instead take the lead and get some momentum going to enact your plans and enlist the proper help.

Weigh your options carefully and communicate effectively. Speak only with wisdom, truth and logic for nothing else will be acceptable.  That thing that you loved, whether it be a person, object or particular situation will be reaching its true end.  You have known for a long time that it was over, but the loss has been a difficult one to confront.  Remember to look at what is left and to always view the cup as half full, never as half empty.  Positivity is 90% of the battle in succeeding over strenuous times. Victory, however will be yours with a tad bit of sadness attached.

When the deal is done and any important papers have been signed, or decisions acted upon, it will be time for forward movement.  You are ready for a rebirth in your life and its time has come.  Your new commitment will be to yourself and your new beginning with a more carefree existence.

Settle up your debts with the universe and watch your path open up before your eyes. You will find you have accomplished much even during the period of Mercury Retrograde, but when direct you will be full-steam ahead with Mars leading the charge. The load will no longer seem as heavy and you have reversed several situations which left your life in a hellish limbo.  Stick with the facts and pay particular attention to detail.  Leave no stone unturned and review your options from more angles.

Make the best possible use of this time period for anything you wish to accomplish for this year.  April 17 Mars will retrograde in Sagittarius and wind up back in Scorpio May 27 through June 29. You will not have these opportunities then, as you will be asked to back track and review some old issues.

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January Love and Finance Tarot Guidance on YouTube:

Also see:

January Astro-Tarot

Sun in Capricorn

Full Moon in Cancer

New Moon in Capricorn

Venus in Sagittarius

Mercury Retrograde

Pluto Direct

Jupiter in Virgo

Saturn in Sagittarius

Beyond the Shift Reading

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Winter/Summer Solstice – Monday, December 21, 2015 11:49pm EST – Tuesday, December 22, 2015 4:49UTC

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Happy Solstice! The next 3 months will indeed prove to be interesting. Here is my Tarot guidance for this new season. 

So, you are definitely at your crossroads. Which way will you go? Make certain that you have all of your facts together for this leg of your journey. Precision to detail is important. The objective here is to survive the difficult, stressful times and make a creative new beginning. 

While some may call you a fool for chasing castles in the air, you do not perceive yourself as Don Quijote titling at windmills. You are manifesting what you need by maintaining patience and going with the flow. Remain laid back, for the universe has a plan as well. 

Don’t work yourself into a corner in your mind. Hard work has it’s rewards. Seize your power and cut away what isn’t necessary. Happiness, abundance and reciprocation in relationships is possible at this time. 

Sneaking in the back door! Not everything needs a full-on approach. You will get in that door somehow! The way to defend your position is to keep building a more stable foundation. Don’t rush into anything at this point. Balance and patience are most definitely the key to success. 

Relax, it will all happen when it is supposed to happen, not a moment before. By the time this season is ending, you will truly have stepped into your power. There will be much more clarity in your thinking. Life is changing and you know you don’t have to live the same way anymore. A wish! What can I say? Make a good one now, because it will come your way before the Equinox and you will be ready to move on to the next chapter. 

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Also See:

Sun in Capricorn

The Path You’ve Chosen

Mercury in Capricorn

Pluto Direct

Jupiter in Virgo

Saturn in Sagittarius

Beyond the Shift Reading

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Free Readings Event – An Evening with Tarot by Cecelia and Raventalker, plus Special Guests – Wednesday, November 25, 2015

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Wednesday, November 25, on the Full Moon, Raventalker and Tarot by Cecelia will be hosting separate threads in the Facebook group ‘Surviving Your Spiritual Path with Tarot, Spirit, Astrology and Meditation‘. Also joining in, with their own threads, will be special guests, Angel Bliss, Nursing the Soul, and The Reiki Forest. Be sure to check out everyone’s pages by clicking on their names. 

To be able to participate, you will need to join the group. Feel free to add your friends. Keep your question simple. 

Date: Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Time: 8:00pm EST – New York

Location: Surviving Your Spiritual Path with Tarot, Spirit, Astrology and Meditation – please join to participate. 

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The Path You’ve Chosen – November, 2015

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This is my mid-month Tarot guidance. It is a supplement to the November Astro-Tarot

Keep your emotions balanced and remain calm through the intense energy of the wonderful New Moon in Scorpio that we had on the 11th. There are several major shifts within this time frame. You will see some things finally coming to fulfillment in the financial sector. For some of you, it is job and career related. Others have property details to handle now. And, for others, it may deal with relationships.  There has been a great deal of worry wrapped up in all this. Some days, there has been a lot of self-doubt and not always being sure it can even work out in your favor. Remain grounded, down-to-earth and compassionate. You will find major change is upon you. Finally. 

Assess your priorities. You cannot tackle everything. Be realistic and not a Don Quijote tilting at windmills. You are becoming more grounded through your changes and achieving wisdom the hard way. Trust your intuition. 

Take the good that is left and work on a new plan. Find trusted individuals to help you. By now, you should know who they are. Keep your biggest commitment with yourself to overcome the stress through the changes you have implemented. 

There is a fear and disillusionment that the hard times could repeat themselves. It is only a feeling that you have. Do not let it control you. Rise above the pain and heartbreak of the betrayals you have endured and take back the reins of your life. 

Your life is slowly giving birth to a new chapter. The hard work you have been doing recently is bringing things to fruition. This work is best done quietly by going through the back door. You have achieved positive outcomes and will be feeling significantly better about your situation. 

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Also see:

November Astro-Tarot

New Moon in Scorpio

Mercury in Scorpio

Mars in Libra

Venus in Libra

Autumn Equinox

Pluto Direct

Uranus Retrograde

Jupiter in Virgo

Saturn in Sagittarius

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What Does the Universe Have in Store for You? – The Story and the Reading

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A couple of months ago, a young lady messaged me and had a very valid question. She wanted to know the difference in the readings I do and what they would be like. So, that in turn sparked an idea and I started a contest for a free reading to use as an example of my ‘What Does the Universe Have in Store for You’ reading. The response was phenomenal and I want to thank everyone who participated. 

I asked everyone to tell me their story and why they felt they should win the free reading. This is all going to remain anonymous as far as names and pictures. The winner has agreed that the story submitted, as well as the reading received, may be shared across social media, not only to give a reading example, but in the hope it will help others. 

Free Reading Entry:

I was adopted into an abusive older family (parents were in their 50’s) at the age of 2. I learned to cook and clean. I was loved to a degree, but abused physically and mentally more. When I turned 15, my mother sold me to a child molester. It turned my life into a complete nightmare, they (my mother and this man) were crazy. I ended up pregnant when I was 16. I had a baby girl, who I loved so much even if I was too young for a baby.
The two of them came up with a plan to drive me crazy, take the baby and put me away. Weird things were happening, but I was young I had no clue, One morning I decided to get up at 5am after this man left the room, like he did every morning. I wanted to see what my mother and him, talked about each morning. I overheard them talking about “The Plan” of driving me crazy.  I slowly went back into my room, closed the door quietly, and fell against the wall and slid down in tears.

This was the first time I ever heard God’s voice! He told me “get up, wipe your tears and go back to sleep”. That is what I did, everything seemed to calm down after that. As a result I grew stronger. I never told anyone what I heard.

I told my mother there would come a day when I would be gone and she would never see me again. Let me rewind a moment. I have to mention, 6 months after having my baby girl, I met my real mother. I found out how I came to be adopted.  It was another betrayal. Myself and my little brother, who I have never met, were sold in a bar for the price of the bar tab. The people who adopted me owned the bar. They in turn sold my brother and sold the bar.

There came that day I took the chance of leaving. I was still young, had never been on food stamps, or worked. I took my little girl with me. I was gone for 2 weeks. They eventually found me, took my daughter and held her as ransom. I could not see my little girl unless I came back. 

I couldn’t go back, my spirit was already dead. I knew I would die if I did. I felt I had no choice. I ended up marrying a man who beat me up every day. I allowed it, because I didn’t have my daughter. That was my punishment. As years went by, I grew stronger and left that situation. 

Years later, I married someone I really loved. He was my soulmate. 6 months after giving birth to our second son, my husband was killed in a car accident. 

I was devastated. I felt I was cursed. I had been sold twice in my life by the very people who were supposed to love me. I was left to raise two young boys on my own with no education. My parents who raised me were in the nursing home at this time. I cared for them and buried them when the time came. Then I mustered up the courage to walk into a college and apply to take classes. I felt the size of an ant. I didn’t feel I deserved to be there where normal people were. 

I took the college entry exam and passed. I went to school for business accounting, while working full time and tending to my boys. Those years were extremely hard. I mourned my husband’s death all those years as he was the only person who really loved me. But I had the best part of him that I was raising, in my two sons. 

My youngest now is 19, graduated and moved on. Both of my boys turned out amazing. I have tried over the years to have a relationship with my daughter, but it fails every time. Last year her father was in prison again for child molesting, and I had my daughter back. She told me how pretty I was, and would bring me flowers at work. Then her father got out, and it all changed. 

I have overcome so much without the use of drugs, alcohol and prostitution. I have always had faith that, at the end of the hard road, God had a plan for me, and my story was my “Gift”. 

While becoming an empty nester has been very difficult for me, I have always had someone to care for, from such a young age. In February of 2015, my youngest son married and I decided to let my apartment go and find a room to rent out of someone’s house. I looked carefully and had 2 choices in mind when I was called about looking at this lady’s room to rent. I thought about it and took her offer. Bad idea, she had all the tendencies of my mother, she slammed kitchen cabinets and screamed. She was very negative and I usually just tried to ignore her. On August 12th, I received a text from her in great detail stating she wanted me out by the end of the week. I was tired of her. I had not signed up for this.  I had nowhere to go, but I had been talking with a man, whom I liked very much. The day she sent the text he said just go get your stuff and stay here for a couple of days, till we can figure this out. This was not typical behavior for me. I was at work and listening to Pandora.  The songs were from my past with my husband. I began to cry, not sad thoughts, but happy ones. It felt as if my husband was telling me to remember back, when my heart was open and how I loved deeply. It was a sign. The next day is when I was asked to move out and I went to this man’s house. I had been single for almost 20 years, so was not expecting much. 

When I arrived, I was just talking and he was quietly staring at me. I stopped and really looked at him, in his “eyes”. I said “OMG, it’s YOU!!! Tears fell down my face as I hugged him. It felt like I saw home in his eyes. He did as well. It was a magical night. The next day while at work, my insecurities set in. I text him asking if he was sure he wanted me to come back that night. The meeting was so intense on top of now going through my worst nightmare of being homeless. This man walked away from me, It crushed me to my very core.

I felt such intense feelings of fear. The past was happening all over again. The whispers in my ear of what my mother, that man, and others had said to me how I was nothing and no one would ever love me. I couldn’t understand how or why God would put me HERE to only be beaten down. No family, I was living my worst fear of my life. I am no body, I am broken beyond repair. I had so many dreams, but was only met with obstacles. 

My children, I couldn’t fix my daughter’s relationship with me. I loved my daughter so much, she hated me, I lost her when she was 2, to never have that chance again to raise her, teach her how to love others, to fix her hair and dress her up, to go to any of her school functions.

Then I had my boys, I did not want to be a burden to them. If anyone knew how hard life was, it was me. The only way I saw, was for me to die. I am alone, no money, no family and no real reason to be alive other than creating problems to hurt others it seemed.

That night I decided, I was going to kill myself. I had a full prescription of sleeping pills. I went out to a local and club sat in a booth. I cried and cried with tears falling down my face for hours. I was drinking shots and long island ice teas. Then I went back to the lady’s house where my things still were. In my mind she deserved to find me dead. I opened the bottle of pills and poured them into my hand. I looked at them and thought are you sure this is what you want? Without the chance for my mind to ask that question again, I downed the pills in one gulp.

The next morning, I woke up as if I had taken or drank NOTHING! What? How could this happen? Drinking usually makes me sick and taking just one of those sleeping pills makes me groggy the next day.

I am in Amazement!!! I get a call from my church, one of my church members had called them. They put me in a nice hotel. The first couple of days I was numb. I just sat quietly, not knowing how I was supposed to feel, or what would happen next.

The church councilor was shocked that I was alive after what I took and all that I drank. He told me laughing do you understand God has a plan for your life.

I lived in a hotel for over a month, there came a time where I had to make a decision. Was I going to let this bring me down, meaning living in the streets, or do I have the fight left in me to move forward and see what God has for me to do. Do I have enough “Faith” to believe that this was all a test, for my growth and how bad I wanted to become the teacher I always believed I was to become.

I fought, I prayed and wisdom came to me in ways to rise up again, like “The Phoenix” (I have tattooed on my back). It was a hard fight, but once I set my mind to move forward, nothing was getting in my way. 

When I moved out of my apartment I had broken my lease. I didn’t understand how hard it would be to rent again. I was directed to some apartments down a road I had not considered. They were very nice.  I told the lady about the lease being broken. I was afraid for her to run my credit. I had been turned down so many times. I gave the application to her and was going to leave because I didn’t want her to look at me as a loser. She said stay and wait. I did and she came back with great news. I had the apartment, the lights and everything else I needed was there. I am in a total different place in my life then where I was 2 to 3 months ago.

Looking back over my life and what has happened, I see the things I went through was a school in life and wisdom. Anyone can go to college and learn just about anything.

But to learn about people, life, hardships, grief and pain is not taught in college. It is a gift of wisdom that only a few are selected to learn. I believe if those that are still grieving, over a bad past would look at it in a way as a gift, “You” were chosen to go through this to understand and help others, because only you can. It frees you up and makes you appreciate life in a whole new way.

Hopefully I will have the chance to inspire and empower others that feel like they are stuck, cursed and have no power, or do not understand what power is. I was blessed by having guides, angels and Jesus teaching me and guiding me the whole way. 

Namaste’

Elizabeth


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